By Kiara Cofer, Creative Writing 2nd Period

The Heartbreaks of love....
Kiara Cofer
We have been together for a while now but recently he left me for her. I have been seeing them around all smiles and no frowns, but I don’t understand why I am the one that has to suffer? What have I done to deserve this type of treatment? I mean he hasn’t done any thing to me besides flaunt her around like she is a golden prize. But I am the one who has to see it. I used to be his number one I am the one that had his heart. I showed him how to love and now he’ s showing some one else what I taught him. My name is Deja and this is my story.



I grew up in a house full of women no male testosterone. I was the youngest of my mother’s three daughters and very spoiled. I am usually the one that gets every thing that I want and more then what I ask for. My father has been in and out of jail since I was five years old and I am now eighteen. Not a good look right? He’s in there for the usual drug related reasons. I just don’t understand why the feds insist on knocking a black mans hustle. All he was trying to do was support his family. Unlike other men, in or out of jail my dad was a good father and a great asset to our family. He showed us right from wrong and he loved us unconditionally so that we would never have to look for any man to fill the position in which he lacked. But some times I do wish he were home so that he could help me with my boy problems and the insecurities that I have. I mean I am beautiful and have always been beautiful but situations like the one that I am in made me just wonder am I really beautiful?



Lately I’ve been seeing a lot of Kiar and his new fling Sianni; it just really gets under my skin to see him with her. Yeah she’s a pretty girl you know the average mixed female. She was half black and half Indian. Caramel skin, hazel eyes, long thick jet black hair I mean she is beautiful but what can she do for him that I already haven’t done? I invested all of my time into him; I have no friends because of him. I believe that I deserve more then what he is dishing out to me. But I guess that’ s what I get for being the best girlfriend that I can be.

“Hey Kiar, I see you gone front now cause you got yourself a new little mutt.” I said to Kiar as him and Sianni began to walk pass me as if I wasn’t even there. “Mutt! Girl you just mad cause I got what you want and what you aint gone get back. At least I know how to hold on to mines you thirsty trick.” Sianni said to me nastily. When she said that I was furious I don’t know what came over me I just lashed out. Next thing I knew Sianni and I was rolling around on the ground. She was pulling my hair while I was beating her face in. Just like your average ghetto girl I whopped her a** but that didn’t make Kiar want to take me back. “Deja why did you do that?” He said to me, furious that his old girlfriend had just beaten up his new one. “She called me out of my name Kiar and all you can think of is her?” “Deja you started it, you came up to us and if I can recall you did call her a mutt.” I was just standing there stuck with nothing to say.

Later on that night I called Kiar to apologize for my actions But like an average nigga he said, “Don’t worry about it Deja maybe you can just come over my house a little later so we can talk about it.” So me being me I didn’t have a doubt in my mind about going. I arrived at his house around 8:00 pm. Once I got there we chilled for a little while then he began to play in my hair and kiss me on my neck. Being curious I asked him, “Kiar why must you d this to me? Why do you treat me as if nothing that I do is good enough for you? I was the best girlfriend that I could be and you gave me you’re a** to kiss. I tried so hard to make you happy, to give you what you needed and deserved and you repay me by flashing your new girlfriend around like I never existed .Why?” “Deja you know I would never do any thing to hurt you.” “So Kiar you just think that you have done no wrong? Like you are just picture perfect? Well news flash Kiar you aren’t and neither am I and I don’t try to be but I do give my all when ever it’s needed but I guess you don’t even care huh?” Deja I love you and you know that. “ “So why are you with her?” I asked. “Maybe I wanted to see if what we had was real.” “Well is it Kiar?” He turned his head. “Is it Kiar? Answer me. Now is not the time for the games. To you this is just a little phase in life but this is my heart you’re playing with.” Kiar then looked me in my eyes and said, “I mean at this point Deja I honestly don’t know. I guess that’s a question that I will never know the answer to.” “So why am I hear then? Don’t you have a girlfriend or since I beat her up you don’t want to see her until she looks back to normal?” “Deja don’t go there.” “Don’t go there? What do you mean don’t go there? You have a girlfriend but you asked me to come see you tonight. But you saying don’t go there. Even though I don’t like her and she may have stolen my boyfriend, my heart, my love, the man I’ve been with for four years, the person that brought me from a little girl to a woman I will not allow you to do her the way you did.” Hysterical and confused on what to do I just got up and began to leave. “Deja don’t walk away like that. I don’t want you to hate me.” “Kiar you did this to yourself.” With tears in my eyes I walked out of his apartment. Not knowing what tomorrow may lead to.

With that thought in my mind in a poem I wrote to him…

It only took one phrase for you to say that made my eye light up like they used to always. Then it took only one thought of us together as one to make me change my mind, as I realized everyday that we are not meant for each other. It took many years for this thought to come about but it took another female for me to realize the truth. I’ve always allowed you back into my heart with no harm, no questions, and no reasons. Just you with open arms. It’s sad that I have to let you go but I’m happy that I’ve found my self. I saw the present without you in it. I saw the past that left me with tears cried all the time. But I’ve finally seen a future of happiness that I’ve built for my self. Honesty lies in a place beneath us and my eyes have been open to new surroundings. My life used to revolve around you. I used to not be able to see myself without you. I used to need you in a way that I needed no one else. But now that’s all beyond me I am a women beyond all measures a beauty that made it in life through love of all others and the intelligence in every area. You think you made me nut I made myself. You know you lied to me but you made me stronger. You wish you still had me and I’m glad I found a way. But one thing is for sure without experiencing you in my life I wouldn’t be the goddess I am today.

It has been years since I have seen Kiar. I’ve heard that he and Sianni are still together hopefully he treats her right. I mean I’ve grown over time and I have learned that she has done nothing to me. She didn’t take my boyfriend out of spite he went to her. I mean you like who you like and that’s it. All I asked for him to do was to love and respect me and he could do neither and with that I learned a valuable lesson. Never go beyond, always meet them half way because if you do they will take advantage of it. Like I said before name is Deja and this is my story.